And I’m feeling so good. So free. So yes.
I have this ritual involving a shoebox, a folder, a notepad, and a pen. I write a Dear God prayer on a sheet of the notepad. When I’m finished, I put it behind the other papers in the folder and read the one off the top.
Yesterday, the one on top was me giving myself permission to write everything I’d do if I knew it’d come true. I kept it short-term though–for the rest of the year. That journal entry was dated July 26th, 2019, and I listed 10 things.
3.5 of ’em already came true:
- Worldschool CJ and Kobe (and me) versus public schooling
- An exciting ass audio/visual documentary idea
- Quit my job
- A speaking tour or a book tour (I ain’t formalized this yet, but two museum curators have reached out to me in the last two weeks)
I forgot all about that list until I read it yesterday. That happens to me all the time with this ritual. I read those journal entries off the top and realize that I’m living what I once prayed for. And I write that stuff and forget it.
But about me quitting my job…
One day while on my nature trail (I swear God talks to me clearest when I’m in nature), Spirit reminded me that whenever I feel attached to something/someone out of fear of going without, then I’m feeding it my power.
Take your power back.
So I started snatching my power from everything and everyone I felt had a piece of it. My job was in the mix, but it wasn’t alone. I felt like fire when I was finished. My palms and scalp literally tingled.
There’s a map at the beginning of the trail. Then about 300 ft ahead, there’s a bridge. Before I get to the bridge, I ask God for whatever I need or want out of the experience. In the past, it’s been courage; it’s been patience; it’s been a sign that I’m supported in quitting my job; etc.
The day following the day I reclaimed my power, I asked did I have what the next level required of me. The answer, that time, came immediately:
You don’t need no more signs or confirmation. This season is about trust and action.
Did you feel that like I felt that when I got that? My God…
Toni Morrison said: “Freeing yourself was one thing. Claiming ownership of that freed self was another.”
Here’s to me claiming a lil more ownership of my deliciously freed self.
P.S.: This ain’t my first down quitting my job. I did it back in 2014 too. I’ve rejoined the workforce since then though. I ain’t starting from scratch this time though; I’m starting from experience. I share what I’ll do differently this time around in an 8-minute video I recorded. [Click here to watch it.]