When I quit my job last year, I was blessed with a HUGE opportunity to come aboard a publishing company as their editor. The owner of me and that company grew extremely close and that won’t be infringed upon at all. However, it’s just the…empathist in me, I guess. She just recently celebrated the first year anniversary of the company’s launching, and I’ve been a part of it since the first book was published.
We’ve grown together.
But now it’s time to go. I’m no longer interested in editing. I’m ready to fully invest my time and energy in writing and coaching. So it’s time to, once again, make that move. Close to eight years ago, that move was leaving the hotel’s front desk to make triple as much money with the police department. About three years ago, it was leaving the PD to go to Savannah State’s writing department. From there, I moved on to doing me full-time.
They were all upgrades like a mutha fucka! And I celebrated accordingly. However, that didn’t subtract the sadness from the loss. At the hotel, I gave up the familial factor. I booked their first hotel room, tutored their daughter, and planned a trip to Zimbabwe with them. At the police department, they were so, so understaffed when my next big opportunity presented itself and were also like family. The ladies in my Savannah State office were my sisters.
See the pattern?
There will always be something that urges you to stay. Maybe it’s the cliche fear of the unknown, the bond, the comfort, the history, or whatever else. It’s always something, which is why I’m both reflecting on my history with this matter and remembering that in order to gain, you have to give up. I’m ready to gain the freedom to explore another lane, so that means removing myself from this one.
How can you relate?
I vented to Nichelle, a close friend of mine (who also happens to be the co-editor of Songs of Yemaya). She responded in the most amazing way, as she always does, speaking directly to my experience and my feelings and the truth. I swear I have the dopest friends ever. Here’s what she had to say: